I Wanted My Big Sister

It's been building up.

and building up.

and creepy crawling up.

I couldn't take it anymore.

any of it.

any of you.

I tried to fight it back.

again.

and again.

The tears came out.

and they didn't stop.

and they couldn't stop.

The heavy weeping.

and the sobbing.

and the heaving.

I just kept on.

and on.

and on.

I didn't really want you.

and you sat there.

and you stared.

I wanted my big sis.

and her reassurances.

and her comforts.

She would've made me laugh.

at you.

at it all.

She would've helped me through.

and I would have been okay.

and I would have been better.

But she wasn't here.

and I cried.

and you didn't know what to do.